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Ok, I’ve done it. I’ve told Gemma to sign me up for counselling. Why? What’s tipped me over the edge? Charlie pestered Claire into kissing him on the bus ride home, and she kept saying that she couldn’t do it on me. She gave in the first time, but after that she refused. And what did Charlie say? ‘Fuck Rosie’ and ‘The damage has already been done.’ 

He has absolutely no respect for me, and he doesn’t care about me. Like, at all. I thought he was at least my friend, but I guess not. And not only that, he was really, really rash down the phone to Claire because she told him she was going to tell me what happened. It was so nasty and uncalled for. He also said to her that all she did was cause pain and her motive was to hurt me. But the only person that’s hurt me this year has been him. It’s always been him. And you know what the worst part of all this is? He says jump, I still say ‘how high?’

Also, it doesn’t make sense, he says he hates her, then he wants to fuck her.

Yet I’m supposed to be his friend, and he won’t even fucking hug me. Am I that repulsive?

So Mark talked to Charlie today, and they both admitted how they’d fucked me up. Charlie still said that he didn’t want me around, he even said to Mark “I know it’s a lot to ask, but can you take her for a bit?” Fucking asshole. Mark retracted that statement when I got upset over it, but I know that Charlie said it. Apparently Mark said to him that my self-esteem was ‘shot’ and Charlie didn’t reply. And Charlie ‘thanked’ Mark for hanging out with me this morning, he said if he hadn’t I probably would’ve ended up hanging out with him, thanks for that little dig there Charlie. He is one bastard. He also said that he hates me making sexual innuendos and flirting with him, but that’s just my sense of humour, and how I get on. I flirt with everyone. He obviously shouldn’t be my friend if he hates my sense of humour. I frankly don’t want anything to do with him, or at least, I say that. I know that all he’s done is hurt me, over and over, but I can’t stop being his friend. And he’s made me out to be some fucking stalker, when it’s not like that at all. I asked him a few months ago (because these kind’ve statements have been made before by other people) if he minded me hanging out with him as much as I did, and he said he didn’t. And the only reason I have hung out with him the amount that I do is because he’s the only person I trust. I feel like everyone else is laughing at me and talking about me behind my back, and I thought he was the one person that wouldn’t. Turns out I was wrong.

So, he told me today that what Matt said was what he (Charlie) had been feeling.

a) He should’ve told me what he was feeling before he said to everybody else.

b) He showed that he’s got absolutely no respect for me by telling everyone anyway.

c) I’ve always been honest with him, the least he could’ve done would be to have been honest with me.

He kind’ve proved today that he’s not really my mate. Calling me over-emotional and dramatic. When we were in the Glynns (pub) he asked me why I was sitting there upset rather than be on the bus upset, kept asking why I didn’t get the bus. Then he said I was bringing the mood done, I had enough, I went to leave and then he called me over-dramatic, and I quote “There you go, storming out again, so over-dramatic.” I’m done, I’ve had enough, I’m not going to try anymore. 

So, Matt decided today to affront me, at a time when I was supposed to be happy that Roadshow was over, that I’d done a good performance in front of my family etc. He said something completely unnecessary - (“Stop following Wigs around he hasn’t had lunch with his friends in ages, it needs to be said just stop it”) Well, as far as I was aware, I was one of Charlie’s friends. And as far as I was aware, I wasn’t stopping him form having lunch with whomever he wanted. And, as far as I’m aware, it’s none of you’re god-damned business. If Charlie has a problem with me hanging out with him, (and the last time I asked him he said he didn’t,) then he’s a big boy and can tell me himself. And another thing that annoyed me was that Charlie did nothing. Even when I was balling with tears (which, by the way, I currently still am) he said nothing, except for ‘cheer up man’. Yeah, that helps a lot. This makes me think that he’s been talking about me behind my back. Mind you, I had thought he was laughing at me behind my back before, this just confirms it in my eyes.

My feather hair extensions :-) xx

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dunno who the fuck that is but hey its a cool picture

They’re an awesome indie band…. I <3 them :3 xx

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I really really want one! :/ xx

So, for me to win a competition (The prize is Shane Dawson’s tie, to meet him and a signed single cover)) all you guys have to do is click this link http://shaned.golnx.co/1c5 :-) please and thanks xx

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Me and Ciara McDonnell at our camping trip on St. Patrick’s day :-D xx

I want my wedding dress to be like this XD xx

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Sigmund Freud

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